starts with GRADUATION ends with..umm...let's see..

Hey,hey,hey!!!
wazzup?
dudes...it's been a lng time i havent write anything here... dang...

heyyy..
guess what?
i GRADUATEed!!
A.K.A...
now i'm gonna be a HIGH SCHOOL girl...whoaa...time flys fast huh? :)
Today... (8th may 2010) i graduated at the Hard Rock Hotel Bali... cool eh?lol jk..

today...
i'm gonna get a new hair cut...i dunno what i'll be like... :S
hope it'll be good...

by the way...........
my sister gonna have her birthday party soon (11th May) but...i was confused what am i gonna wear...
when i went to the graduation... my mom and my sister went to a boutique... with OUT me!? (SHIT!)
and they bought this DRESS...for ME... :S
it has flower-ish pattern ..and really cute... :) cuteness score : 9.9/10
BUT,,,
its just NOT ME! its not my fault that i didnt like it or whatever.. well, i like it..but not so much..(if i can give it score it'll be : 4/10) They bought that dress with out ME...and bought it for ME..they DIDN'T ASK and whatsoever..thay just bought it!!!???
i just dont want to WEAR it...it's SO NOT ME... but i dont think i can protest..(or they'll never gonna buy me anything..ergh.. >:( )
before the buy me this "adorable" dress... :(
i was suppose to wear this sort of black slim tutu that my mom bought from China..duh? and a black tank top and something else...like Pixie Lott in her music video : GRAVITY... and not! i dont think thats gonna happen..and in that dress...i feel like a SHIT! people... S-H-I-T... RGGHH!! :((((
seriously its driving me NUTS!!!! okay? NUTS! >:( *sigh* snap! *huft*

xo

Today's news =]

Hey!
Wazzup?
it's been a long time i haven't wrote on my blog... :)

for today....GOOD LUCK u guys (for ppl that go for the scholarship test) !!! <3

and umm..
i found a 2nd book "bookstroe" near double-six beach....and o-m-g...i love it...so cheap...and the book still looks good. :) i bought a novel called WICKED.
i was confused when i read it at the first time..but well...i get along...and i understand whats the story about...it's a cool book!u should read it...

and i dunno... somehow i want a digital camera...my dad have the professional one,but it's heavy. i want the saall one,so i can capture stuff..u know...my life...?and i have to collect my money to buy them.

By the way....
i decied my new High School!!! yay!
the school called "Kalam Kudus" which mean....i dont know...it's a christiant school. which kindda strict..i guess? hufft...anyway they got a better curriculum than CHIS (my present school) :)
so i'm gonna be The Silet New Girl. :( <- so not me... :(((

that's for today....

xoxo
Sophia

no more exams till the end of march 2010

Hey!
its 24th Feb 2010...
yeah..
so....
too much shit happened lately and i'm sick of it.
so, tonight at my friends farewell party i'm gonna have fun! (i think)

so, no more exams untill the end of March 2010. :) yay!

Hush, Hush

21 Feb 2o1o (9.54 p.m.)
Hey ppl!!
wazuupp??
OMG...i'm getting crazier and crazier everyday beacuse of the annoying orange....LOL! MUST WATCH ppl!

Btw,
i just bought a novel last Friday loke 10 p.m...? And finished it like 6 hours ago..
Called Hush, Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick.
i was like : "DUH?? They need a better titel for this book!!!" but i bought it anyway, and guess what? i'm in love with this book!! Gosh... o.O
the book is about a girl that fell in love with a fallen angel...ever there's a romantic part, there's still the action part (thank God...)

anyway...that's for today!!

xoxo
Sophia

OPHELIA

In Ophelia's first speaking appearance in the play, we see her with her brother, Laertes, who is leaving for France. Laertes warns her that Hamlet, the heir to the throne of Denmark, does not have the freedom to marry whomever he wants. Ophelia's father, Polonius, enters while Laertes is leaving, and also admonishes Ophelia against pursuing Hamlet, who he fears is not earnest about her.

In Ophelia's next appearance, she tells Polonius that Hamlet rushed into her room with his clothing askew, and with a "hellish" expression on his face, and only stared at her and nodded three times, without speaking to her. Based on what Ophelia tells him, about Hamlet acting in such a "mad" way, Polonius concludes that he was wrong to forbid Ophelia to see Hamlet, and that Hamlet must be mad because of lovesickness for Ophelia. Polonius immediately decides to go to Claudius (the new King of Denmark, and also Hamlet's uncle and stepfather) about the situation. Polonius later suggests to Claudius that they can hide behind an arras to overhear Hamlet speaking to Ophelia, when Hamlet thinks the conversation is private. Since Polonius is now sure Hamlet is lovesick for Ophelia, he thinks Hamlet will express love for Ophelia. Claudius agrees to try the eavesdropping plan later.

The plan leads to what is commonly called the 'Nunnery Scene'. Polonius instructs Ophelia to stand in the lobby of the castle, while he and Claudius hide behind. Hamlet enters the room, in a different world from the others, and recites his "To be, or not to be" soliloquy. Hamlet approaches Ophelia and talks to her. He tells her "get thee to a nunnery." Hamlet becomes angry, realizes he's gone too far, and says "I say we will have no more marriages", and exits. Ophelia is left bewildered and heartbroken, sure that Hamlet is insane. After Hamlet storms out, Ophelia makes her "O, what a noble mind is here o'erthrown" soliloquy.

The next time Ophelia appears is at the 'Mousetrap Play' which Hamlet has arranged to try to prove that Claudius killed King Hamlet. Hamlet sits with Ophelia and makes sexually suggestive remarks, also saying that woman's love is brief.
Later that night, after the play, Hamlet kills Polonius during a private meeting between Hamlet and his mother, Queen Gertrude. At Ophelia's next appearance,after her father's death, she has gone mad, due to what the other characters interpret as grief for her father. She talks in riddles and rhymes, sings some "mad" and bawdy songs about death and a maiden losing her virginity. After bidding everyone a "good night", she exits.

The final time Ophelia appears in the play is after Laertes comes to the castle to challenge Claudius over the death of his father, Polonius. Ophelia sings more songs and hands out flowers, citing their symbolic meanings although interpretations of the meanings differ. The only herb that Shakespeare gives Ophelia herself is rue; "... there's rue for you, and here's some for me; we may call it herb of grace o'Sundays; O, you must wear your rue with a difference". Rue is well known for its symbolic meaning of regret, but the herb is also highly poisonous and has powerful abortive propertie. While the concept that Ophelia may be pregnant through Hamlet seems unlikely, given the social stigma of a prince and a noblewoman having sex, there are a variety of other poisonous herbs that Shakespeare could have given Ophelia to suggest perhaps a plan of suicide.If rue is taken in a correct measure, it forces the body to abort the foetus by simulating an illness that will not allow the body to support a growing offspring. This would suggest that Shakespeare chose this herb specifically to suggest that Ophelia may suspect she is pregnant. Then she blesses everyone and exits for the last time.

In Act 4 Scene 7, Queen Gertrude, in her monologue (There is a willow grows aslant the brook), reports that Ophelia had climbed into a willow tree, and then a branch broke and dropped Ophelia into the brook, where she drowned. Gertrude says that Ophelia appeared "incapable of her own distress". Gertrude's announcement of Ophelia's death has been praised as one of the most poetic death announcements in literature.

We later see a sexton at the graveyard insisting Ophelia must have killed herself,however, although the sexton attempts to argue the point logically and legally (as Ophelia was already insane and probably unable to control her actions), he never says how he would know it as a fact. The cleric who presides at Ophelia's funeral later asserts that she should have been buried in unsanctified ground as a suicide, but he doesn't say how he knows facts about it,[original research?] either. Laertes is outraged by what the cleric says, and replies that Ophelia will be an angel in heaven when the cleric "liest howling" in hell. The remarks by the sexton and the cleric have naturally led to a great deal of discussion and debate over whether Ophelia committed suicide or not.

At Ophelia's funeral, Queen Gertrude sprinkles flowers on Ophelia's grave ("sweets to the sweet,") and says she wished Ophelia could have been Hamlet's wife. Laertes then jumps into Ophelia's grave excavation, asking for the burial to wait until he has held her in his arms one last time and proclaims how much he loved her. Hamlet, nearby, then challenges Laertes and claims that he loved Ophelia more than "forty thousand" brothers could. After her funeral scene, Ophelia is no longer mentioned.


source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ophelia

xoxo
sophia

hey!!
whats up?
it's 5.19 pm... :)

man...
i'm totally in love with Allison Irahetas' album JUST LIKE YOU : Friday I'll be Over u and Don't waste the pretty!!!
she rocks....i wonder why shes' in the 4th place of American Idol? well she may not be better than Adam Lambert or Kris Allen,but shes' really good!! :)

Anyway....
these days are getting better since my last few posts...my mood is totally fixed!!! ;D
my school gonna have this "Valentine" party on Feb 12th...i'm not coming tough... not really intrested. :( but they got this amazing prize : A SURFING BOARD!!! man i really want that shit! but we have to write a LOVE POEM, and i'm the worst;trust me. zzz... wonder who gonna win that... :( i'm gonna be soooo jelous to who ever that win the surf board. :( ha....


xoxo
Sophia

I wrote a song....ORIGINALLY by ME

when i was bored, sometimes i wrote songs, i can't write a poem that's why i'm writting songs....


WAITING FOR YOU

YOU SAY YOU'LL NEVER LEAVE ME
YOU SAY YOU'LL ALWAYS LOVE ME
YOU SAY YOU WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE


RIGHT NOW, I AM WAITING
RIGHT NOW, I AM HOPING

FOR YOU TO SAVE ME
FOR YOU TO HELP ME
WHEN I SCREAMED FOR HELP

WAITING FOR YOU TO COME
WAITING FOR YOU TO BE HERE,
SAVE ME,
HOLD ME,
LOVE ME...

YOU SAY YOU'LL ALWAYS LOVE ME
YOU SAY YOU'LL BE THERE FOR ME
YOU SAY YOU WILL RESCUE ME

RIGHT NOW, I'M WAITING
RIGHT NOW, I'M HOPING

FOR YOU TO SAVE ME
FOR YOU TO HELP ME
WHEN I SCREAMED FOR HELP

WAITING FOR YOU TO COME
WAITING FOR YOU TO BE HERE,
SAVE ME,
LOVE ME,
HOLD ME...

RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW
I'M WAITONG FOR YOU
RIGHTHERE RIGHT NOW
I'M LOSSING HOPE OF YOU

RIGHT NOW, I'M WAITING
RIGHT NOW, I'M HOPING

FOR YOU TO SAVE ME
FOR YOU TO HELP ME
WHEN I SCREAMED FOR HELP

WAITING FOR YOU TO COME
WAITING FOR YOU TO BE HERE,
SAVE ME,
LOVE ME,
HOLD ME...

SAVE ME,
LOVE ME,
HOLD ME...

WAITING,
WAITING,
WAITING...

that's the song, so simple eh?
hope you like it,
and oh, by the way, it's ORIGINALLY BY ME...

thanks for visiting!
i'll try to make a batter song (if i can) >.<

xoxo
Sophia

There's a song...

Hey...
what's up?
it's like only few minutes that i posted my last post right?

umm
there's a song that keeps me moving, strongger, and something like that.
u know THE CLIMB BY MILEY CYRUS right?
it's a really good song.

"I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but.."
that's really me, i mean i can ALMOST see my dreams i was sooo close...but i just fail,but i DIDN'T GIVE UP.

and the part :
"But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb"

this song is really good. for me. for u maybe... :)

don't give up!!

xoxo
Sophia

I'm Not Little Miss Perfect!

Hey!
it's 09.38 pm and i am not happy!!!
here's what i wanna say :


"first, I'M NOT LITTLE MISS PERFECT LIKE U R!i'm just a little girl that stuck in thing little "perfect" world, and i can't reach u and ur perfect world....okay, somethimes i didn't know what to do or waht should i do, u got it? it's like i can't be 'that perfect'. all i asked from u is : STOP YELLING AT ME!!! it's resally frustrating u know. i didn't mind anyone spoke to me rudely, just DON'T YELL AT ME, it makes me wanna cry u know, makes my good mood turn to worst mood ever in the next second. even the wor u yelled is : SHUT UP! it makes me like u know...hurt. So sad. i really tired of running, held my tears, something like that. and i know, sometines i cried at night, when everybody think i was asleep, sometimes i wasn't, i was crying. and i'm really tired of that. sometimes it feels like no one care about me, i didn't know to whom should i tell my sad-sad story? is there anyone that even wanna here it? I'm lossing hope, I'm lossing faith in my self, in everybody, it's like no one ever on my side, and really need that, okay, u can call me a selfish bitch,but whatever. i really NEED that someone, i feel ashame of my self whan i was thinking to tell these story to my bestfriend. everybody thought i was a "happy little girl in her perfect world and never sad, a.k.a always happy." it's like a mask to my face, a part of me i don't want anybody to worried, but the other part, i need that someone... so sad... :( and yet, sometimes that mask fell,and i cried. again and again and again, i really need to stop these crying!!!!(even i didn't cry a lot). honestly, i felt this big hole in my heart that NEEDS to be heal.help. i can feel my heartbeat beats three times faster when someone yelled at me, or when i didn't feel so good. and the hole in my heart is gettig bigger and bigger.......
that's all i guess..."



thanks for visiting!!

xoxo
Sophia

wise decision... i guess

yeah...sooo...i decided to let that girl to take my place for scholarship...
it IS not fair, but whatever... i gonna look for a better high school.

i honestly have to say, i did upset these few days...until yesterday, my moms' birthday!! we were having dinner at the Rumors restaurant. yum! then, we went to Hagen-Dazz for desert! i ate a lot of ice creams....yum...
those things made me happier, it cheers me up! that's a really good thing after these bad bad bad day bout ACS scholarship. duh?



xoxo
Sophia

These few days...

hello,holla,hey,hi,whats up y'all??
okaayy..soooooo
it's been few days i haven't write anything here,miss this blog... >.<

My teacher gave me this scholarship form to Singapore, which is GREAT!! then, i did the first selection test, i got 60. I PASS!!! even 60 isn't a good mark for me, DUH? it's like what? C?
Yea, then.... i can't go to the second selection because my rank isss : 6!
but only the top 5 gonna go to the second selection. Then,the day after, one of them steped back, so... i'm in the #5 rank!! i WAS a top 5...
untillllll....
a junior of my school (that transfered to my class cause shes "smart") she got like 40 in the first selection test. DUH???
they put gher on number 5, so they KICKED ME OUT.
honestly...it's not fair!
sooo sick of these SCHOLARSHIP THING!
i almost lost my mind, i almost BURN THE FUC*ING SCHOLARSHIP FORM.
then, i thought about it again, it IS possible for them to change their mind, right?
i also text my bestfriend. se calmed me down (thank God).

this afternoon i thought :
1. did i hate that girl (reason thet they kicked me out) ? NO
2. did i hate my teacher cox of this ? NO
3. did i hate my self for this ? MAYBE
4. did i blame my self for studying math for 3,5 hour & the result is nothing ? YEA,PRETTY MUCH LIKE THAT
6. am i disappointed ? YES!! VERY!!!
7. am i gonna try again ? NOT SURE
8. am i lossing my hope ? I DON'T KNOW.

ANYWAY....
whatever...
if theres any update bout this shi*, i'll tell ya...

thanks for visiting....

xoxo
Sophia

me,me,me

hey!!!!
i have a fashion blog!
http://thesecretkeyassophia.blogspot.com/

twitter :
@theonlysophiac



xoxo
sophia

Exams... =[

Uh-oh...
i'm having exams this week... it SUCKS!!
i mean come on.... we just go back to school like what? 2 or t3 weeks ago...not even a month yet and we're having tests... =[
And yet. we have to come back to school on saturday just to do the STUPID 2nd grade students' English tests from the goverment!
hello?
it's satuday!
WEEKEND!
i have to say this, HONESTLY it ruins my weekend...:(

whatever...
btw,
here's the schedule...
Wednesday, 20-01-2010 : Bahasa
Thrusday, 21-01-2010 : Math
Friday, 22-01-2010 : Science
Saturday, 23-01-2010 : English

man,man,man... i'm totally stressed out, right now...

R.I.P Grandpa..

Okay, Hi!
Well. i'm NOT in a HAPPY mood...

uh....
so the news today is my grandfater died this morning in Batam (his hometown)... because of lung cancer. He's a 'heavy smoker'.
what i heard from the other day, he can't breathe. so they brought him to the hospital.
Yesterday, my mom and my aunt flew to Batam.
And this morning my mom called from Batam (Where my grandfather lived)like 4 a.m. i guess,he died. Few hours after he met my mom and aunt. :(
It's like his last wish to see his daughter that live far away from him. He want to see them. And so after he saw my mom and aunt. he slept. forever.

Tomorrow, my sister and uncle gonna fly to Batam. for the ceremony stuff... But, I can't, because of these exam stuff (goverment exam). I can't go there, what i mean is... HELLO???????? dude! he's my grandfather...and he passed away, i SHOULD be there for the ceremony. DUH?
Well, i'm gonna ask for my teacher if i can come along with my sister there. Keep my fingger crossed.

That's it.... =[

xoxo
Sophia

Smirnoff!!! >.<

Hey!

Okay, last night i drank smirnoff. And guess what?
It tastes like a lemonade...only a bit more bitter....man, i drank like 3/4 of the bottle and my siter only drank like.. 1/4 of the bottle...and of course, we're not drunk, not at all... i mean hello? it's only like 4,5% vodka... big deal?

=]


xoxo
Sophia

The book of randomness #1

Okay... So, this is the first picture of my drawing.... =]

Well... the COVER actually... =]

Facial v.s. THE BOOK OF RANDOMNESS...

Yo...
So um, it's 2.19 pm...

man, i didn't drink "Smirnoff" last night... me and my older sister were sooo freaking tired...
I think we're gonna drink it tonight.

I just done drinking a watermelon juice and cereals.

BTW...
i went to facial today...anddd.... it sucks man!!
My face look like a shit right now! zits everywhere...i just wist my face will be clean, no zits, smooth... if i really do have that smooth face, i'll be sooooo happy... = [

Anyway...

I have a sketch book that i really love...
called...
THE BOOK OF RANDOMNESS...
i named it the book of randomness cuz i put all of my art piece there,most of them i drew at school( physic class....boorriinggg =] ).
And um..maybe i'll post my drawing here...i guess...

anyway...
that's enough for now....

see ya....

xoxo
sophia

Whatever...Anyway...

It's 10.06 pm...and i'm still here...sitting in front of my beautiful pink MacBook Pro (that i really love)...chewing gum...waiting for someone to text me (which is impossible)

Thinking about...ummm...what? i don;t even know what i'm thinking about...

Whatever.

Anyway. Now i know what am i thinking about... How it would fell to "like" somebody..not like : like; like as umm..more than a friend.. r u gonna think bout them all the time? talk about them all the time? or never mention them?

i honestly have to say....i don't really think that i ever like someone as 'more than a friend'... or maybe i'm just don't realize it?

I know i sound sooooooo stupid,like a dork, or whatever... i mean, i'm 14 hello? people have boyfriend at this age, even want to focus my study, i also want to have a little of love life u know... (OMG, i never tell anybody bout this...except my BFF)....

at my school, no one is such a gentle man,all of the boys are the same, their attitude are like 5 year old kids....and annoying.

Whatever...

Anyway....

Oh my God. i just realize that lately i said "Whatever..." that continues with "Anyway..."... haha...

umm

Whatever...

Anyway...

see..i did it again and i didn't mean it....sorry..

i'm going to drink Smirnoff....an 4,5% (vodka) alcoholic drink...i'm not an alcoholic though... i don't like alcohol stuff..........

okay then...

good night guys..

=]

xoxo

Sophia

Hi everyone!!!

Okay...

First of all...

Hi everyone!!!!!

My name is Sophia. I'm 14. and umm...this blog is about my life...

so..umm...i'll share some stuff with you...the up and down of my life,or mood...

xoxo

sophia