These few days...

hello,holla,hey,hi,whats up y'all??
okaayy..soooooo
it's been few days i haven't write anything here,miss this blog... >.<

My teacher gave me this scholarship form to Singapore, which is GREAT!! then, i did the first selection test, i got 60. I PASS!!! even 60 isn't a good mark for me, DUH? it's like what? C?
Yea, then.... i can't go to the second selection because my rank isss : 6!
but only the top 5 gonna go to the second selection. Then,the day after, one of them steped back, so... i'm in the #5 rank!! i WAS a top 5...
untillllll....
a junior of my school (that transfered to my class cause shes "smart") she got like 40 in the first selection test. DUH???
they put gher on number 5, so they KICKED ME OUT.
honestly...it's not fair!
sooo sick of these SCHOLARSHIP THING!
i almost lost my mind, i almost BURN THE FUC*ING SCHOLARSHIP FORM.
then, i thought about it again, it IS possible for them to change their mind, right?
i also text my bestfriend. se calmed me down (thank God).

this afternoon i thought :
1. did i hate that girl (reason thet they kicked me out) ? NO
2. did i hate my teacher cox of this ? NO
3. did i hate my self for this ? MAYBE
4. did i blame my self for studying math for 3,5 hour & the result is nothing ? YEA,PRETTY MUCH LIKE THAT
6. am i disappointed ? YES!! VERY!!!
7. am i gonna try again ? NOT SURE
8. am i lossing my hope ? I DON'T KNOW.

ANYWAY....
whatever...
if theres any update bout this shi*, i'll tell ya...

thanks for visiting....

xoxo
Sophia